Monday, August 17, 2015

Beaming

So, a big apology is necessary from me to all of you (whoever you are) out there. I was in the process of a move from my apartment (a woefully dramatic situation, that place was. I'd get into the details but its over and done. Me and my former roommates are better off with not being under such...pressures) and I decided that since I'd be gone so long, I should set up a few posts to automatically drop ever 2 weeks. Thing is, having not done that ever before with this blog, I kinda messed it up and didn't click the right things and well, obviously, nothing posted in that time. So, yeah, I apologize for falling off the face of the earth.

That said, having gone back over the posts I realize that a few of them don't reflect my frame of mind about the subjects and others spoke on stuff that recent events in the world the past month have given me more to think on. The art, however, is still worth showing.

I'm kinda still in between places as of this moment today and all the fun that comes with it so, since the only new art I have done this past month is work related, I'll try and space these out over a couple of days so you guys can feel like I'm being far more productive in "fun art" than I actually am at the moment. haha.


Scotty, ("beam me up, Scotty!") from the original Star Trek.
9x12 brush pen on Strathmore bristol board.

I may toss some background on this at some point. A few of my things are in storage right now otherwise this (and other things I shall post) would show the process from from pencils to final inks. I really wanna do a whole "how I do it" process post but that's gonna wait till things get settled and I'm back in my usual groove.(peep that I'll be shouting out the equipment I use from now on. Maybe the love will allow me to get an endorse me. haha.)
Talk to y'all soon,

Conduct Lionhardt

Thursday, June 25, 2015

Raps (Part 1)

So, I’ve been spending a lot of time in prayer of late.

For me, prayer is just about the only time I get to be 100% open (sadly due to a lack of GENUINE interest in what’s going on with me below the surface) and I use it to really process through the good or bad. I also feel that it is a great time to consider the little things, subtle bits and pieces that I honestly take for granted and should be a bit more thankful for.
I suggest you give it a try sometime. You may find it to even be a cathartic.
(note: Some people ascribe to ‘meditation’ in the same way. Besides the inclusion of a deity in the equation, I don’t see a huge difference between the terms “prayer” and “meditation”… ya know, despite the Dictionary says.)


I haven’t spoken of music in a while, despite this blogs log line of it being my thoughts as an artist AND as an emcee. I figured that maybe I should remedy that a little bit now.

I get a lot of surface questions in life and, of late, for whatever reason, my music has come up. Questions like, “Do you still do music?”, “How’s the music coming?”, “Oh, you rap? Is it…like, Christian rap or…?”, etc, etc.

People are funny that way
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I know a decent amount of argument in and around music is on how we label things. As a consumer culture we need signifying terms to properly compartmentalize what we take in, mostly for sake of justification for (or against) the worth of our entertainment. I once was a debater (not a very great one) and jumped full on into those sort of disputes.
Blame it on age or perhaps levelled up maturity but, now, everything to me is the simple definitions. I am, yes, a Christian (both by government name as well as religious affiliation) and I am an emcee who raps. To me it is that simple a classification (even though I may now be creating an argument by making a statement, as such.)

My process of creating raps is a bit complex to some but, it too is simply defined: My music is another extension of my illustrating. Every song is a series of images in sequential order (think: comic panels OR, for those who don’t prescribe to reading comics, storyboard illustrations) that creates a narrative. My main intention in rap is to lead to thoughtful consideration of the sequential narrative.

I write raps because I do not have time (nor am I paid well enough) to draw ALL the things I would like to communicate and get people thinking and/or talking about.

My last two releases were “Earth”, more than a few years back, a collaboration with my long-time best friend Jordan Santana (we go by the illustrious nom de guerre, “The Royal Applebaums”) and a solo album called “Finite.”

In the years since, I have accumulated two and a half more albums of songs, which have yet to be recorded beyond demo stage.
Someone recently posted a splendid little rant on social media about the fact that people’s need for more frequency in their entertainment consumption creates worse and less thoughtful product. That, in a literal sense as it said in Philippians 3:19, "their god is their stomach." We need to be fed frequently with what we like and we can't wait very long for more of it. This is probably why you will note that so many sequels keep happening in films of late.

In the first song I ever recorded I had this line, "I am a thought for the art that most forgot to start." That sort of became my goal to this day. I want to think about my work in ways I don't see commonly done by others. I want to lead people to thought. To THINK. If I happen to make them groove or bob their head, that's cool too.

There's a lot going on out there. I am sure you have noticed. I think it is time to start writing new things to be considered.

- Conduct Lionhardt


Monday, June 15, 2015

WIP

Whew! Busy times. A lot is going on so, no real 'blogging' today. Just a peek at some art in and around the desk. I do plan on looking into prints, though. Someone said that it might entice a few busy and isn't all that expensive. We'll see though. 2015 has been an odd year in people showing interest in illustrations like mine. I'm weighing in on whether prints are a pursuit worth taking on.

In the meantime, here's some art!


Agent Tripplet (Agents of Shield)

 

Agent Simmons (Agents of Shield)


Agent Coulson (Agents of Shield)


Blade (based off an AWESOME cosplayer)



Bryce Swan. (Author of the forthcoming, "Doctor Divinity, Bookseller!")

- Conduct Lionhardt

Monday, May 11, 2015

You can't Control the Narrative

Hello. It's been awhile, hasn't it? Yeah, I took a break from social media for about a full month's time so I could work on a pretty substantial project (time-wise). Occasionally, and possibly more so with those of us in the creative fields, you need to make sure your head-space is clear for focus and creativity to get playing room. (This should be understandable to most though. I can't be the ONLY person who finds all the debates, jokes, and constant stream of images on social media as something that could fill up mind-space.)

But here is an interesting little thing that happened: Despite a pretty substantial and brief description of why I was away from it all, when I returned I found several messages with people voicing a whole number of reasons for my "social media sabbatical." (And some of it was just craziness that I won't go in detail with on here. Like, seriously weird reasons to NOT be on social media.)Taking that first day to ease back in and reading through these odd questions, I gained a realization that connects with something I mentioned a few months back about expectations:

You CAN'T control the narrative.

I think we all like to think that even in this digital age of sharing your life, thoughts, and information via the wondrous media platforms that you can in some way, shape, or form, create a story that describes you clearly to the world.

I am sorry to say, though, that this isn't anywhere close to the truth. And its not close to true not from a lack of you not going about it he right way. No. It isn't true because an individuals desire for constructing their narrative in the eyes of others can never overcome people's preconceived expectations.

For me, I told a short version of what I would be doing while away. But the expectation of others for me to be as present as I had been on social media, led them to feel that this explanation was NOT the full story. Those portions were required to be filled.

I have had at least a good half dozen friends who have shifted from a job, church, or location in the last 10 months and, on a very similar note, they have all ran into the odd and intriguing issue of "narrative control" that I'm describing here. You share your reason for doing something and think that you've placed a definitive stamp on it...only to find that one, two, or ten people have decided to look passed your statement of intent and begin attaching, deleting, or completely re-writing what is or has happened to fit their definition of a better narrative for YOUR story.

A part of me finds great concern in this. I recently watched a poetry piece where someone asked if Mandela would have done what he did and spent 30 years in jail and say what he said if he knew that after his death the very REAL things he said and did would be scrutinized and picked at and deleted and re-written (to some degree) by people trying to make THEIR sense of what his life was. I was floored by the thought, knowing full well that I have sat through (whether in person or online) NUMEROUS discussions by people doing this exact same thing. We are extremely comfortable with questioning every bit of a person, every action, every word, and every expression, taking a life and chopping it into chunks and then looking at each of them to try and structure a story that makes us feel good or infuriates us to no end. This is an acceptable practice. Kids do it, adults, everyone. We keep trying to define things and people BEYOND what they have said of themselves, beyond what they have shown. Its a common act to do and, in all personal honesty, a part of me is wondering if it is really something that we should be doing.

I'm becoming more and more of a fan of questioning what are beneficial pursuits of my time. I think its easy when you are young and still in the process of ironing out what exactly your niche is, to be spending time trying to express yourself in a way you might deem definitive. That yelling to the clouds how you'll be a captain of industry, or sports god, or a great family person, is worthwhile to do. You hope that in all your boisterous billowing, something will stick. And while you wait for that to happen, you can also talk A LOT about others and what they have done, how you would do it different, better, or more courageously.

Heh. Maybe its my age and the fact I feel I've seen so much of that (and done a lot too) that the sum of my observation is a realization of how much LIFE I've missed out on trying to "get" what others narratives are, lost time while trying to redefine others from MY vantage point of them.

I'm not trying to say I've solved this puzzle but maybe, MAYBE, when someone says something about why they've done certain things, its true. Perhaps, SOMETIMES, people are what they look like they are. Possibly, it is OKAY to trust what people are telling you is their reason for making the choices they do.

I know. Sometimes we DISAGREE with them. This will happen. We're all flawed creatures, prone to HIGH moments of emotional expression. Its what makes the human experience so interesting. Its part of what allows things to feel fresh and new. If everyone was the same, you'd lose that spice of life, the dramas would be less compelling and we would all TRY a lot less.

So, what is this post all about? You'll never be able to please everyone with everything you think, say, and do, but THAT'S OK. State your narrative and walk it. If others choose to not take it at face value, warp it to make themselves feel better, or attempt to tarnish the image you've put out there, SO WHAT? I have yet to see one person whom, by doing their very best towards themselves AND towards others, not eventually get to a place that opinions opposite, lose the sting of their sharpness. Your life is YOURS. You walk all those roads in your own feet, not anyone else.

Write your story. Make it good and keep it on your terms. I'll be praying for you every step of the way to make the most of YOUR life and to live it to the BEST of YOUR ability. That is something you can control. Your choices. So choose well, and choose for YOU.

- Conduct Lionhardt

P.S. - Below is some artwork to check out. Computer-scanner is on the fritz so, bare with these photographs.



Agent Peggy Carter. inks and water color on watercolor board. (Her show just got the 2nd season renewal so, YAY!)




 (unfinished) WWE wrestler, Dean Ambrose. inks on Bristol Board.


(unfinished) Nelvana of the Northern Lights, cos-player. Line art inks on Bristol Board.

Friday, February 20, 2015

Liz Love

Hey folks!

Sorry I didn't post this one over here on the day but I finally finished up that piece of Liz Taylor (and one her many fellas) that someone commissioned me to do then, changed their mind. I posted it up a few places on Valentines but seemingly forgot to place it on here. Whoops!

I feel like my art is getting a tad bit stagnant so, I'm looking to try a few different things in the weeks to come. My other work has been keeping me a bit busy to really throw down on some pieces like I want but I think I will have something neat (or somethings) to post up for a look, soon.

I'd love to share a few thoughts too but, at the moment, I have several things racing around my noggin. Give me a little more time to focus and properly articulate them and you'll have some things to read through.

Till then, Love some Liz:


- Conduct Lionhardt

Friday, February 6, 2015

The Girl in the Flowered Dress

I happen to be quite smitten with the talented Ruth Negga. There is just something about her look and how she approaches her performances that has always caught my attention. So you can imagine my surprise when watching the first season of "Marvel's Agents of SHIELD" and she showed up as Raina, the enigmatic girl in the flowered dress. What I believe was initially supposed to be a short stint on the show, Ruth's performance was so well received by the showrunners (as well as us viewers) that the character of Raina continued on through the first season and well into the currently on-air 2nd. Hopefully this means a lot for the actress, who has only scratched the surface of American TV and film.

As usual, I did this with blue pencil and brush pens on Bristol board. For the most part, this is done. I may tweak a bit with the tones but, that all depends on if the brush pens I have set for grays can get what little I see as needing to be messed around with. Haha. Enjoy!







- Conduct Lionhardt

Groundhogs Day

I drew this image of Bill Murray's character in the film "Groundhogs Day", FOR Groundhogs Day. If you haven't seen the film, this is one of the first occurrences of the plot where a character continuously relives the same day until they get it right. I always thought the film was well done and, as such stories seem to teach, an interesting way of proving that sometimes what you think you want, isn't what you need.

Considering the idea of getting to relive a day until you "get it right" I think we can all conjure up a date of which we wish we could have that option. But the more I thought of it...(well, I may be in the minority here, with this thought) I question whether or not trading in a bad experience would somehow effect some of the good ones I made as a result of coming back from that failure? Wins, by nature of both substance and title, give you a great feeling. Yet, it is a loss that teaches us things, that gives opportunity for change and growth that could effect the long term in ways that a win never can. Don't know if I could trade my learning lessons for some victories. It is an interesting thing to ponder, don't you think?



- Conduct Lionhardt